This is my first post on my blog. It will document my ongoing battle with depression and trying to seek help for it.
On monday the 11th April I had an assessment for my mental health. It was a 30-40 minute interview where something happened but not me, even though I was there. Firstly they wanted to know about my transition as if that was a major or only reason for my depression. The two other people there talked about variety of things including a drug and cbt. At least they talked about, not that I was involved. Indeed I could have walked out gone to the toilet and come back and nothing would have changed.
When I left the building, I felt it had been a waste of time. To the best of my knowledge something had been decided but I didn't need to know.
I then went home and wondering what was point. Over rest of the week I tried to find what going on. I was told that, after 3 calls my doctor and counselor would be told and that I didn't need to be concerned.
I then felt that I was on the edge of an episode and friday that episode arrived. I then rang them up requesting another assessment. I was told the people I dealt with in the monday assessment would contact me. which I replied they aren't listening to me. To that there was no answer and I had to wait. Well I couldn't as my episode have arrived and I ended up threatening to end my life unless they took me seriously.
Apparently the did and I now I have new assessment on monday
I know how you feel, I struggle a lot with depression myself, it can be really hard to cope on a day to day basis. I'm not sure where in Auckland you live, but I know at the North Shore Hospital there is a mental health crisis team you can call, and I'm sure that's the same in other areas. I've never called them, but I've been very close to, so I don't know how helpful they are, but it could be an option if you're feeling really really low?
ReplyDeleteI realise I probably sound like a creepy weirdo because we don't even really know each other, but I hate to see others suffering like I do.
-Lena ( we sat next to each other at the last feminist collective meeting at strata)
I've managed to get another assessment on monday, which had helped but that I had to demand it was difficult.
ReplyDeleteWell that's good, I guess? Well not good that you feel this way, but good you're able to get some help?.... I am not very eloquent. But I know what you're going through, and it sucks. *internet hugs*
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